upset... sad...crying a little inside

Tonight, my plans fell through. sniff... I can't go to The Last Song anymore. Oh well. In Horticulture I dropped a hanging basket and it went everywhere. :*( Not the best day ever. Now, I get to do my math homework, sociology homework, and english homework. partay! After sulking, by going to the gas station to get a drink and chocolate donettes... i think i'll be okay. Now I just have to force myself to go work. oh yeah... tomorrow is my birthday. hope it's better than today.

fairytale wednesdays and prom dreams

First of all, this is random, but I love the song Oh Love (Brad Paisley, Carrie Underwood.) The song reminds me that there are truly, many different colors of love. There's the family type, the romance, the friendly and true absolute pure happiness in love. :) Unless, you aren't in love, but I'm not a cynic, so I do believe in true loves first kiss and happily ever after. Hahaha. That whole thing was very random, and I apologize.

I love Wednesdays. It is my favorite day because I get a nice email every week. Without fail. :) I am so grateful for that! It seems to make my life go over a little easier and more smoothly. "When I don’t hear from him, it’s as if I’ve died. As if the air is sucked out from my lungs and I left desolate. But when I receive a letter, I know our world is real. It’s the one I care for. " My feeling about that is not as dramatic, but if I don't hear from him, my week doesn't go too well.

Prom Dreams: Every little girl always dreams of the day a handsome bloake will ask to accompany them to the Prom. Yeah. I hope that I'll at least get to go to one. I am keeping my fingers crossed.... then again... that might be jinxing that. . . dang. Haha. Oh well. Someday I hope to go to that very over-rated, but fabulously described dance. (With the whole Gazeebo scene and everything.) :) Haha.
love,
Maddie. xoxoxo

summer

I am reading an amazing book right now. I am so ready for summer. I hope I have an adventurous summer such as the one I am currently reading about. The other day at school, as I was walking to my last class, I felt weird. Usually my friends are accompanying me down the large hallway, but they were gone. As I walked I knew that I might see people that I was rather afraid to face or just even walk past them. In my head I told myself, "You are confident. You can do this. Walk like there are no such things as high school insecurities." After I thought of those words, I realized I straightened myself, rolled my shoulders backand took a deep breath before walking, and during walking. Now I just think that after reading this book, people are out there who will like me for who I am and they will love every piece of me, even though I might be a little weird, and try too hard sometimes. :)
only your truly,
Maddie Violet.

wow, i did it!

I was checking my grades because I took a test last time in math. I felt pretty good about it but I really wasn't sure. Oh my goodness. I can't believe it. I got 100. That is such a complete miracle! That is the first time I have ever gotten 100 on a math test! :) I am so glad that I did the review!

randoms.

I love hats. If I could have a shopping spree I would buy hats, cardigans, dresses and sandals. That's all. Well, maybe car air fresheners too. Moonlight Path lotion smells really good and I love my blue walls. I roll down my windows while wearing 80's sunglasses even if it's cold outside. I secretly listen to KPGR, and like it. Weird, I know. Taylor Swift songs get overplayed, but when they come on the radio I feel like it's my life story. I love the sun. It is such a beautiful thing, especially when you wait so long for it to pop out from the clouds. Someday I will go stargazing with a boy. Actually, a man. Haha... I want to be a high school english teacher. That is thanks to Ms. Skabelund. She was such a wonderful teacher! I loved that class so much! Pearl earrings make anything look good. I wish that I had a perfect manecure all the time. Even though it is March, I am already thinking about what to write in my fellow PGians yearbooks. So secretly, I wanted to try for Stu Co. I didn't do it because I hangout in the library, so I don't think I'd get to many votes. It's all about popularity now anyway. Right now there is a lot going on at my house, but I know that the church IS TRUE! This I know because when I live the Gospel, I am truly happy. Someday I aspire to marry a wonderful guy who will love me for who I am and hopefully kiss me on the forehead and be okay with drawing on the sidewalk with chalk. This is so random, just like me. Sorry! Oh well. That's me for sure. :) Oh, how I long for the day when high school insecurities aren't so evident. I hope that I can find out who I am. But you know what? I do know. I am a girl who wants to be the best she can be, and a daughter of a Heavenly Father who Loves me. :) I hope that everyone has such wonderful week!
only yours truly,
Maddie Violet, the girl who loves who she is and loves to blog.
ps. I love ctr rings, rupert grint, and doing well in math. oh, and mocha almond fundge ice cream. yummy.

Finance office lines.

I had to wait in the finance office line during lunch yesterday. It was the deadline to pay for choir tour, so you can imagine that the line was very long. I was standing there when all of the sudden I noticed that there was the Australian standing right in front of me. He was talking. :) I was just standing there smiling because it was so beautiful and wonderful to listen to. Well, he said something about Physics and about a cah.(car) He said it about two times and then I wanted to say, "Please will you say car again for me?" Haha. It was so wonderful. Earlier I went to the office because I felt very sick. My aunt Linda gave me some pain pills and a water. The Australian is in my aunts ward. While I was waiting in line, my aunt came out to talk to me for a minute and then he said to her, "Well hello? How ah you today?" They talked for a bit and then she went back in the office. After that I started to laugh because he started talking about how my uncle Doug is his leader and that he is so huge he could throw a person across the room. It was a rather enjoyable lunch yesterday. :) I had a good laugh.
only yours truly,
Maddie Violet, who likes to blog. :)

My Birthday... it's coming. :) yay!

My birthday is coming up. I am so excited! I know exactly what I want! I am sounding really greedy, but I want a book, and a really amazing pair of shoes I found online. The shoes I want are on sale at Anthropolgies and I am so desperate for them. They are so dang cute! I am so excited. I think I am just going to tell people to give me a gift card to DSW the shoe store. It is so beautiful there. I could spend hours trying every different pair of shoes on. :) Oh the joys of fashion. It makes me so happy inside. Well I think I'd enjoy gift cards to any store that has cute jumpers or skirts. I am really into that right now. Anyway, I am just so excited, even thought me being 17 sounds SO weird and kinda old... oh well. :) I now just need a math tutor because I suck at math no matter what.

only yours truly,

Maddie Violet (the picture is of the shoes I want)

My name is Maddie. I am Fearless. :)

Hey everyone! I have been thinking about my senior year next year and how great I truly want it to be. So I have decided to be fearless and go for it. I am trying out for Chamber Choir and I am gong to write for the school newspaper. I am so excited! :) Also with being fearless, that also means in the social department as well. I am going to hopefully go out on more dates.... let's keep our fingers crossed that I will have some kind of chance at that. I am going into my last year of high school, (yay) with high hopes. I really with all of my heart, wish that they don't get smashed or trampled on. Haha. Well I want to share this amazing quote from a letter. Here it is. I hope you enjoy every thoughful, beautiful and enchanting word that this quote of beauty brings about. "I have two luxuries to brood over in my walks; your lovliness and the hour of my death. Oh that I could have posession of them both in the same minute. I never knew before what such a love as you have made me feel was, I did not believe in it. But if you will fully love me, though there may be some fire, it will not be more than we can bear when moistened and bedewed with pleasures."

only yours truly,

Maddie Violet, one who longs to be quite fearless

boys... boys...boys. this is about boys. :) haha.

If today was a fairytale....

I'd find a prince wearing sunglasses and a great smile.

A boy who loves to read would talk to me until 1 in the morning about books and everything wonderful about them.... ah.

There would be one of those perfect movie scenes where you dance on a rooftop to great music with a beautiful. elegant, and wonderful garden that is all lit up. :)

A kiss on the forehead. :) Forget the lips. Forehead kisses are so cute!

I would parachute with an umbrella off of a bridge with a cute guy. We'd be dressed up in formal clothes. Weird, but cute.

Puddle Jumping? I think yes. :) Haha.

only yours truly,

Maddie Violet, the girl who is just day dreaming. (after watching bright star.)