oh sweet mother of pearl :: who is pearl?

So, I haven't blogged in a long while. A week. Anyway, my life isn't vividly excting or anything, but I did get a top from Anthropologie! So exciting for me! :) yay! My lovely mother bought it for me. Later she took us to Olive Garden for dinner. I ordered this really fancy stawberry mango lemonade and what do I do? Of course I broke out into hives. It's grand. Bronte got back from France and I got to hear everything about it. I also discovered a Harry Potter wii game. Yes, my arms are sore from casting spells and making potions, but it was SO worth it! Someday I will go to Europe. Hopefully, because I really want to. I went to Eclipse today. I'm not totally into twilight, it was pretty good though. However, they did show a new preview for Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. AH!!! I HAVE to see it!!! It will be amazingly fantastic and wonderful! I cannot wait! I also have decided that I need an old school bike with a basket. :) I love life, and sometimes life doesn't love me back but I will still love it forever! Have a great week everyone!
love maddie,
xoxoxo

I think I like today, I think it's good

oh man. I love today. I love wednesday. I can't wait to hear next week! :) ah! My excitement is so building inside right now. It might just burst our of me. Well, Bronte is supposedly back. I am not sure though. I hope she didn't elope with a hot french guy. hahaha. (self control) inside joke. Tomorrow I am going to the hospital to spend the day with my amazing grandma whom I love way to much to even express. :) I am going to paint her fingernails and read some keats love letters to her. I love helping her, it brings my heart great joy. :)
love maddie,
xoxoxo

vent

I feel like my blog is here for a reason and for me, sometimes it's just to let out my feelings of the day/summer/life. Do you ever feel like you long to be something, or you have thought your whole life that you'd be this person and then you aren't? I feel that way today. I always thought I'd be this girl who has an amazing social life, body, and smarts. I know that I am cute, I talk to people and I do pretty well in school, but sometimes it's hard to watch other people and not judge yourself. Yes, some days I find myself saying, why didn't I turn out like her? I remember her from fourth grade and I always thought I would be as nice looking. I know I need to keep in mind that I am a Child of God. I guess for me, that is hard sometimes. I think I have found my weak spot. Confidence. To have what I really thought I'd be, I have to work for it, so that's what I'll do. My summer isn't nearly as wonderful as I thought. It is still good though. Just one more month and maybe it'll be better then. Well now that I am done venting, I've realized tomorrow is the middle day so maybe that might cheer me up a bit. Goodnight!
love maddie.

sent

I sent a package yesterday! I never knew that would be so exciting! But it was! :) Today I went swimming at my grandmas pool. There were a bunch of high school guys that were there. I laughed because they were too cool to get in the water. They just wanted to lay out. What delicate boys. haha. I didn't know them though, so I think they go to Af. I really laughed when this girl came and put her ipod in and was laying out because that is when they all got up and were doing tricks and flips in the pool. Welcome to guys trying to get attention. It was quite funny. Today I smell like Christmas. Please let me explain. Every Christmas, I wear the same lotion, Velvet Tuberose. It smells so lovely. Today I am wearing it, so I smell like Christmas time. It's weird, I know. Well, I just want to say that I love my family. We have ups and downs but we keep goin' and find laughter in everything! :) I hope you all have a perfectly wonderful week! :)

my hair equals disgusting mess

i want to cut my hair and i need suggestions. please anyone? what should i do? i was thinking selena gomez-ish. please feel free to comment because i like to hear suggestions and opinions.
love maddie,
xoxoxo

oh okay.

"I could almost kiss the stars, for shining so bright!" Yeah, if I were with a guy stargazing, I probably wouldn't kiss the stars if you know what I mean. Hahaha. I am so tired from girls camp and now I am watching the lizzie mcguire movie. Loved camp! It was fun besides the tent part. I am now just so excited to hear about paris france from mi amiga. Yay! Well, if you'll excuse me, I am going to take a nap. My body is so drained of all energy.
love maddie.
ooOOooOOO. that's for mariah.

mhm, i feel good in this

okay, i must confess that my favorite thing to wear is a dress. this is because my very lovely friend bronte alexandra hebdon introduced me to the idea that dresses are way better than jeans. fact? i think so. they are so flattering and i feel more memorable. :) yay for dresses and wearing hippie boots with the dresses! haha!
love maddie,
xoxoxo

life. . . and here it is.

Today I have been thinking a lot about life. When I was younger, I thought my family was perfect, and that my parents wouldn't ever split, that I'd be a size four in high school, and that I would not be socially awkward. I never thought I'd see my older sister Libby absolutely love sports hahaha. I thought Sophie would get married around 24 because she is so strong. I never thought that I'd live for the excitement of Wednesdays or make it into Chamer choir.

I didn't know that my brother would know more than me at 12 years old. I didn't know that from junior year I would have my first boyfriend, or hang out in the library with my best friends and gain a love for John Keats. I didn't really anticipate to gain an allergy to nuts either. Lets be honest here, I didn't ever think I would form an undying love for good literature, mocha almond udge ice cream, thunder and the sound of my little turtle scratching his cage. :)

All of these are surprises. My parents split, I am defiantely not a size 4... hahaha, I am slightly socially awkward, my sister loves sports, sophie's married in about 57 days, I can't live without wednesday, I'm in Chamber, my brother is a freakin genius, I had a boyfriend, love keats...... dot dot dot. One thing will never change though. And that is the love of the Savior. :) It will always be there depite anything that ever happens. That's why I try to get through somedays, and don't want some days to ever end.

Life is Beautiful, and we live on a beautiful planet.

So tomorrow, I am going to wake up with a smile and get things done, because life is too short to have your cup half full. That's why my cup isn't half full, or half empty. My cup is overflowing.

Love maddie, xoxoxo

ah nuts!

So, I found out this morning that I have a nut allergy. Now I am one of those special people who can't eat them. The only thing that I am fuming mad about is that now, I can't have my favorite ice cream, Mocha Almond Fudge.

love maddie, the girl allergic to nuts

xoxoxo

allergic

I can barely type this because my hands are swollen, my face is swollen, also my eyes are little because my face is really swollen. I am covered in hives. Inside my ears, even my head and my nose. I hate this. Even my throat hurts. If I put a picture up, you would all scream.
love maddie,
xoxoxo

the devil wears prada

okay, i would kill to have the clothes in the devil wears prada. however, i am not a size zero, or a size two. hahaha. :) love the designer clothes. will i ever own them? probably not. but hey, a girl can dream.

love maddie

xoxoxo cheers love!

today is wednesday. letter. no work. healing time for my legs

Today is wednesday and in about 12-15 hours from this time, I will get an email/letter. Oh how wednesdays motivate me to get through each week. 45. Well, I don't have work, which feels so incredibly good. Using tomorrow, I will let my thoroughly sunburnt and bright pink legs, heal. They look like the cap on the new Dove Go Fresh deodorant that I own, well, the dark pink part.

love maddie

xoxoxo

ctr

I know that God Lives and Loves me! I know that people are a part of my life, because he knew I would need them to make it through. I am so grateful for the love of the Savior that I feel everyday! I know the Church is True because without it, I wouldn't make it. I know that when we may feel so inadequate to do the things that seem too hard, that Heavenly Father will help us. I love the Gospel with my whole heart! I know missionary work is real and missionaries work hard each week to find those people who hunger for the Gospel and humble themselves to Jesus Christ and his true Gospel! How lucky I am to be a member of our wonderful church! I know that the temple is a special place, and someday I hope to go there! I know with my whole heart and even more, that the church is true! I hope you all try to really "Soak up the Son!" this summer! Cheers love!

love maddie

sometimes i just have to laugh at myself

So, my new favoite show is Alfred Hitchcock Hour. Yes, I am such a dork. :) haha. But I love it.

dot dot dot

lately i find myself humming primary songs. i love primary songs. somedays, i wish life would be easier, that the hardest decision to make was what flavor of popsicle i want. not so. this week i find myself so scared for next year, but also my heart starts to beat fast and i start to breathe a little heavily, because i am also so full of anticipation. my sweet grandma is showing me that i can be better each day. i am just enjoying the days i spend with her. :) it's all good. except those days when i need to talk to bronte and she is in france. lol. haha.
love maddie.

sorry, this is the second time today

I just have to say...
today is one of those days where i have felt thoroughly confused.
so incredibly, and overly done with the drama of high school.
thank goodness i am officially a senior.
love maddie.

my hair looks fairly good, i love missionaries, i laugh way too much

Maddie

is passionate, hopeful, anxious

Sister of Libby, Sophie, Bridger

Loves the Gospel, Wednesdays, smiling too much

Feels warm when the sun comes out and happy when the stars shine

Needs, patience, music, laughter

Gives service, love, a listening ear

Fears, being alone, change, uncertainty

Would like to see, the whole world, happiness, everyone living christlike

Shares, love, smiles, talents

A daughter of God, clean, wannabe writer

Resident of this wonderful, beautiful, fantastic planet Earth

Maddie Violet