vent

I feel like my blog is here for a reason and for me, sometimes it's just to let out my feelings of the day/summer/life. Do you ever feel like you long to be something, or you have thought your whole life that you'd be this person and then you aren't? I feel that way today. I always thought I'd be this girl who has an amazing social life, body, and smarts. I know that I am cute, I talk to people and I do pretty well in school, but sometimes it's hard to watch other people and not judge yourself. Yes, some days I find myself saying, why didn't I turn out like her? I remember her from fourth grade and I always thought I would be as nice looking. I know I need to keep in mind that I am a Child of God. I guess for me, that is hard sometimes. I think I have found my weak spot. Confidence. To have what I really thought I'd be, I have to work for it, so that's what I'll do. My summer isn't nearly as wonderful as I thought. It is still good though. Just one more month and maybe it'll be better then. Well now that I am done venting, I've realized tomorrow is the middle day so maybe that might cheer me up a bit. Goodnight!
love maddie.